bad memories - LUCIAN -

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

Kara was honestly tired of Lucian's actions and having to hear about them. She had given up her gossip title awhile ago, yet she was still hearing about all of it. Not to mention the fact that she eighteenth birthday is coming up real soon. Her's and Alex's, but she had a feeling that she wasn't going to see him much to often for awhile. Until the heartbreak of Izzy was over. Why in the world did he even go out with her again? hadn't he learned his lesson the first time? Plus she was tired of supporting his children, when the social services people came by next time and they weren't here? she would have them sent back. She was being a bitch, she knew that but they needed to straighten up their acts before becoming parent's. At least she was mature, although she liked the girls around, maybe Kara would keep them around. Hoping that the press hasn't gotten around to finding out what her twin had been up to.

After being under a constant watch, by her husband; she just needed to get out. Out of this place, this house. She had left the girls with her staff and took the floo network to Knockturn Alley. Kara was actually well known and they knew not to mess with her, but of course the press had leaked that she was married and pregnant. At least she didn't look that pregnant yet. she couldn't believe that she was actually pregnant, and her ultra sound was coming up, so she would be able to tell if she was having just one baby, or twins. She hoped to god it wasn't more than two. Kara just didn't think she could take more than two, and honestly she didn't really want more than two.


After having a small tonic and water, she was about ready to leave, when someone sat down across from her, someone that knew her. She could read their thoughts, she closed her mind to them, and read theirs. Occlumency and Legilmency came in handy, and Kara's abilities were rather strong. Her Uncle had taught her how to be a weapon and was she a good one. He never regretted it, not once. He had always been a little hesitant on teaching her though. She could hear them shuffle, she had been turned as they had sat down, turning back around to see them, she was shocked, but the expression on her face wasn't one of a shocked person, it was a straight face. She waited for a hello. or some kind of greeting before speaking herself.

[LUCIAN CHARLES AVERY]

Lucian had come down to Knockturn Alley to get away from everything. The resident bad boy was starting to get sick of all the gossip of he and Lily Potter’s breakup, and what better a place to go where students seldom come? It was the perfect temporary solution. He wished they’d get over it already, though. He honestly felt bad for what he had done, but this was something that he had always done. He was practically dysfunctional. All he could do was have a girl for one night. After that, it got harder and harder to keep her around. Lily, who he had been with for a year, had slowly been slipping through his own fingers, and not because of her actions, but because of his. And so he slept with her, and then slept with Cassiopeia Black. Luc hadn’t meant to, but the Blacks had told him he had to. Well, they didn’t exactly do that, but they had blackmail on him that he really didn’t need getting out.

He hadn’t had the best of pasts, and he didn’t need any of that ruining his maybe-already-ruined future. He didn’t need his actions coming back and messing up anything. And so he had done what the Blacks had wanted, and then acted all cocky about it, when honestly, he hadn’t wanted to do it. Would he let that get out? Of course he wouldn’t. He was Lucian Avery, as Lily used to say. He was the notoriously bad playboy, and he couldn’t ruin that image. The only two girlfriends he had ever had were Kara Johnson and Lily Potter; two girls that were very wanted in Slytherin house, and he knew that he had been lucky when he was with them, but now, both of them were against him, and it was all because he just couldn’t bring himself to slow down. Luc shook his head and made his way into the pub he had been walking to, greeting someone at the door who knew he and his father. He almost rolled his eyes after he had moved away, but he didn’t.

He saw the flash of blonde hair sitting on a bar stool and was surprised to know that Kara Johnson was here. He didn’t show it on his face, though. He was one to keep most emotions off of his face, and just keep up a smirk that basically had ‘I’m-Lucian-Avery’ written all over it. It was his signature expression, one that he doubted he could change, even if he wanted to. He sat down and ordered his usual, a tumbler of scotch, and smirked at Kara. “Kara, always a pleasure.” He said in his usual sarcastic drawl, pretending for it to be true. Like he ever wanted to see Kara. Most of the time, he went out of his way to avoid her. She was trouble, as was her husband, and he never wanted to get involved. He almost commented about her being in Knockturn Alley on such a day like this, but he held it back, and waited for the blonde to speak.

-thanks to hoping4him of caution 2.0 for the image! :]

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

From the moment that Luc had walked up behind her and spoke, she was already ready to kill him. She knew that he feared her, because she could hold her own. She once loved him, before she had even fell for Scorp. Lily probably had been happy with Scorp and Kara was happy with Luc. The fates changed, and Luc almost knew everything about her, things that even she didn't know herself, but she should be thanking him. If it weren't for him Lily and her would have never mended their friendship, so yes, she thanked Lucian Avery for that.

Luc probably could read the anger right off her aura. She didn't want him near her at all. If he as so much stepped one foot out of line, she would snap and he would regret it. Kara looked up at him, her face as plain as day. Forcing a half smile she nodded, "yes, as always Lucian" she couldn't help but have some tention in her voice, as she gritted her teeth while speaking to him. Honestly she could see right through his scarcastic comments. He was surprised that she was here? They used to own this alley, but she was sure that he remembered. Kara just sat there and watched him drink his scotch. "Well you haven't changed much, who's the new lucky lady? since it seems i shouldn't bring her up. Or is it that you have had a bunch of one nighters with a few different ladies?" Kara said with some ammusement in her voice. She waited for him to speak again, come up with some nasty comment, honestly Kara and Luc were cold to each other ever since she broke his heart all those years ago.

[LUCIAN CHARLES AVERY]

Luc knew she was angry. He knew things about her that probably she didn’t know about herself, but he rarely mentioned them, when they spoke. Even though they were downright awful to each other when they spoke, they still held that weird formal-ish relationship, one that was almost impossible to be rid of. It was just the way the two of them were. Way back when, when they had been together, they had been happy. He had loved her, and he had thought she had loved him. Lily had been happy with Scorpius, and he had always been behind his good friend, making sure that his obliviousness didn’t get in the way of their relationship. He had always been sort-of there. But now, so many things had changed. Kara was with Scorpius, and he and Lily had been together…key word; had. Because he had done what he had, they weren’t together. End of story.

When she responded, he immediately picked up on the tension in her voice, but didn’t say anything. He’d wait for her before he continued on her initiation, going down their usual line of mean taunts and teases, ones that bit at each other, but they didn’t care. That was just how they were. He heard what she said, and he almost winced. Why did Kara even have to reference Lily? He was still sore on the matter, believe it or not. He felt the guilt eating away at him for the whole incident, but it wasn’t like there was much he could do. He was Lucian Avery, and so his reputation got in the way. The same thing applied for her. They were stuck, for the moment, until one of them decided to say ‘to hell with it’ and act upon their feelings. It was sort-of like a battle of wills, though, and Luc had a feeling he’d be waiting a while.

“The latter, you know, of course.” He said. “On the topic of relationships, has Scorpius up and ran, yet? Or has he not found out how you’re so fond of breaking people’s hearts?” He asked, his tone showing his seriousness, just as hers’ had. It would seem to anyone else that they were just having a regular conversation, but the two of them knew otherwise, as would Scorpius and Lily, if they had been sitting in the room. Of course, Kara knew that he wouldn’t have picked up a new girl. Not yet. He had waited a while after Kara before he went to Lily. He had loved Kara, once upon a dream. And now, that love had turned stone cold, and now his love for Lily had been tarnished, once upon a nightmare. Taking another sip, he waited for Kara’s next blow, wondering which high place she’d hit next.

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

Tonight Kara was going to get her payback, he was not going to get away with what he had done, and there wasn't a thing he could do about it. Kara wasn't going to let him out of her sight for the rest of the night. She was tired, but that was just the pregnancy talking. She had been an Insomniac for many years now and sleep was something she needed very little of. One of those nights would be tonight. If they had been down right nasty to each other before, then this was something that he wouldn't ever forget. Although the gossip would fly, and Scorp would be so angry with her once he found out. No one was going to stop her from getting her revenge on Luc for breaking Lily's heart.

It really wasn't very often that Kara kept in touch with her ex's. Lucian was one of a kind, and way back when they had dated, they had been happy. They had ruled the damn school. Everyone loved them, and Lily had been with Scorpius, and it was always the four of them who walked the school together just having a blast, and it was just great because they were all in Slytherin, Lily was just the odd one out, because she hadn't been raised as a weapon, she had a good mommy and daddy. Kara had changed Lily and on the occasion she was proud of it, but mostly not really. The girl was naive, not being able to see past the end of her nose. All she cared about was gossip, but not what was really important. That part Kara had failed to pound into her head.

Kara smirked at him "right of course, how silly of me to forget... you just like adding notches to your bed post... how many do you have now? or did you have to switch posts?" When he mentioned Scorpius, she was even more pissed, although she had deserved it, but she wasn't done with Lily yet. "not yet, ya see... he sticks to me like glue and if you recall, we did have that one small break up, back before we had been married" As for his later part of the question, she just wanted to smack him upside the head.

Kara knew that this was going to get her into a lot of trouble, not being able to drink, not being able to do a lot of things, but she was going to do them anyways. She took the glass from him and downed the whole thing. She set it on the bar and grabbed Luc's hand. Turn of tables, she was going to admire Luc's handy work. "could you send a bottle of scotch to my room please?" she asked the bar tender, and had kissed Luc's cheek. "if you do not play along, i will expose your dirty little secret.... and knowing me so well, you know i will"She wispered into his ear afterwards. Hoping that he caught her drift.

[LUCIAN CHARLES AVERY]

He wished she’d stop talking about the whole ‘notches-on-the-bed-post’ thing. Every time he slept with another girl, he felt as if he was cheating on Lily. The whole thing didn’t make sense, as they were broken up. He did love her though, and that made him feel guilty every time one more metaphorical notch went to his bedpost. Sure, he had been the school’s most notorious playboy at one point, but that reputation hadn’t been used so much when he had started dating Lily. Truthfully, he wanted to stay with Lily, and he wanted to get back with her, but it was impossible at this point in time. He still had the Black family hanging over his shoulder, and if he didn’t answer to anymore of their demands, one big secret would get out, and it would ruin his life forever. And he couldn’t handle that.

It wasn’t ever the situation that Lucian kept in touch with the girls he slept with. Kara had been a girlfriend, and so he had kept in touch with her. Lily, on the other hand…he avoided like the plague. When he could. At other times, when they’re paths crossed, he became the usual ‘I’m Lucian Avery’ type of guy; that cocky, insensitive bastard type, and Lily became her usual ‘I’m Lily Potter, Queen B.’ type of girl; that mean, cruel, and cold type, and that was how the whole conversation turned out: a bad mix of two personalities that hadn’t been shown off when they had been together. Sometimes he wished that Kara had been with Scorp and he had been with Lily while they had all been the best of friends, the ones that ran Hogwarts and took it by storm. He didn’t know what had happened to their group of friends, but he knew that he hated it. “No, it’s still the same bed post, as you put it.” Lucian said with a slightly clenched jaw.

He watched as Kara had a bottle of scotch sent to, apparently, to their room. He had no idea where she was going with this, but he just went with it. After he heard her whisper in his ear, panic flooded his senses, but it quickly receded when he got a hold of himself again. Sure, Kara knew a lot of things about him…he went with it anyway. She could’ve had one of her help gather some dirt on him just so she could come here now for whatever reason, and he wasn’t about to jeopardize his reputation for whatever she had on him. He followed her lead, following her crazy plan, and hoping that this was nothing to do with anything too serious. Knowing Kara, though, it would be.

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

So maybe the whole bed post thing was a little harsh, but he'd get over it. Well she shouldn't talk, she had done the same thing he had after they had broken up. What made them stay so close in a sense she had no idea. She could sense something was wrong, she always could sense when something was wrong with the people she was closest with. Why Luc or anyone kept things was beyond her, she always had a way of finding out.

She had met Lucian Avery when she had been third year, that was the beginning of her Dramatic life. They hadn't started dating until she had been a fourth year, when she had ruled the School, she was the top dog's right hand, fifth year they had still been dating and she had been the top dog. It seems like it was so long ago. She had come back into reality when he said it had still been the same bed post. She was going to come back with a comment like 'well it must be a very long post then' but, she decided not to. She had seen his clenched jaw , and didn't wanna push him to far.

Kara pulled Lucian up the stairs, and into a bedroom, locking the door behind her. "Here i am babe.... anything you wish to tell me? why you and Lily split? Why you insisted on hiding something from me?" She made an attempt to slap him hard against the face. She was angry, he probably would have guessed that right away. She gave up her reputation, and she could out him and kill his. She wouldn't go that far yet, but if she really had to she would. She moved so close to him, their bodies touched, she had barely started to grow so she still looked like she wasn't pregnant. Although everyone knew that she was, it was old news.

"are you afraid of me? or is it my brother and Scorp your worried about... not to worry, they wont find out from me. do you not love me anymore? Did you finally get over me? tell me....how long did it take?" she asked, moving around him in slow circles, whispering in either ear. Finally after the last taunt she kissed him. It was a lustful kiss, "it took me a year, maybe a little more to finally get you washed out of my system... you can thank Scorpius for that" She moved her hand slowly down his arm, until she intertwined their fingers together. She had a smirk on her face and waited for some type of responce.

[LUCIAN CHARLES AVERY]

Lucian was almost relieved when she didn’t comment back. She probably could see that he was getting angry, and he didn’t know if that was good or bad for her plan. He had no idea what she was doing at the moment. They had gone out a while back, and even though they still knew everything about each other, people did change, and he was assuming that this was part of the changed Kara. He didn’t know what to expect with her, anymore. She had always been a wild card, but this was a little bit extreme. He didn’t say anything as she led him to the room that she had obviously rented. She locked the door, and he started to feel nervous, though it didn’t show. He made sure that it didn’t.

When he heard her start to talk, the dread started to grow in his stomach. He almost knew, from instinct, when her hand came up to slap him and he grabbed it before he could make it’s impact. He had already been slapped by Lily, and it was way too soon. He was used to it, as for the girls he had slept with, that was the easiest way for them to get over getting kicked out of his bed. It was wrong of him, sure, but he didn’t care about them at all. Not even a little bit. The only girl he really cared about was Lily, but he would never say that out loud. He couldn’t. Not in the precarious position he was in at the moment.

She was then moving around him in slow circles, her words torturing him. He closed his eyes for a second and took a deep breath, trying to get himself under control. Sometimes, he really hated their games. He was so sick of them, especially now. Before, their games had brought him amusement, but now, things had actually gotten serious, and now their games were really starting to affect him. He caught himself responding to kiss, and slightly shivered when her hand touched his skin. This was crazy. She was ridiculously manipulative. He did love her, some part of him still did, but not the way he used to. He couldn’t explain it.

“Kara, why Lily and I are over is none of your business. And hiding things from you is second nature to me. Just like hiding things from me is a second nature to you. Don’t start acting like you haven’t hidden things from me over the years, Kara. Even you can’t lie that badly.” He drawled out, trying to remain in the mood he had been in when the conversation had started. He drew away from her, taking a step back. “Kara, stop.” He said, his tone clearly stating that he had had enough.

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

Kara wasn't going to risk her relationship with Scorpius, so she stopped. She moved over to the table with the bottle of scotch on it. Opening it, she had poured him a glass. she knew him quite well, for the two years they had been togehter and she thought they'd end up married. Honestly though, she was glad they weren't, she didn't think she could have ever lived the life she had back then forever. Even raising her children that way when the time came, she was glad that she ended up with Scorpius in the end.

Sometimes he was an idiot, she just wanted him to admit that he'd been an ass and move on with his life, rather than tourment Lily and her friends. "oh yes i forgot that your a compulsive liar, and i never lied to you when we were together, well of course now it's different, because your an ass and you damn well know it.... your just like your father" The last part wasn't supposed to come out but it just slipped and she couldn't help it, she was beyond angry.

She held her wand out pointing it out at him, hex's flew out here and there, next to him. she didn't hit him on purpose, at least not yet. She knew that he was angry and was struggling to keep calm, she was about to snap. If she just pushed him a little more he'd probably snap too and then they could go into a good fight. "well Avery, i know you can't help being like your poor father who's locked up in azkaban. i'm afraid though that i'm a bit disapointed though, i thought you'd be better than that" she threw a hex at him, hoping that it would affect him. she hoped it did, for he truly deserved it all.

[LUCIAN CHARLES AVERY]

Lucian saw as she poured him a glass of scotch, and he almost rolled his eyes. He knew that she knew him that well. He took the glass that she had poured him anyway, though, and tipped it back. He would need it, dealing with Kara. She was way too smart sometimes, and getting him to say things sometimes was her specialty. Luc knew that they had been set on the path to get married when they had split up, and he had really loved her, but then it had been ruined, and that had been the end. And sometimes, he was glad that she had ended up with Scorpius. Sometimes, he knew that that would’ve been easier than what they would’ve ended up as.

He wasn’t exactly a compulsive liar. He had been taught to lie basically all his life. Being raised as a weapon did that to people. It wasn’t even a second nature to lie to people. To tell someone the truth, he had to consciously do it. He snorted at her, though. “I’m the compulsive liar? No need to resort to hypocracy, Kara.” He drawled, trying not to think about what she had said after she had called him a compulsive liar. His father. He hated when anyone brought his father up. Apollo Avery had been a Death Eater, way back when he was a student, and when he graduated, and when he finally got caught, after his three children were born, he was sent to Azkaban, to pay for what he had done. Lucian thought of him as something that he wanted to be, as businessman, but someone he didn’t want to resemble. And Kara knew that.

Lucian watched as Kara through hex after hex at him, not one hitting him. He knew that they were purposely meant not to hit him, though. Kara would’ve been able to hit him easily, if she wanted to. And when she sent one hurtling right for him, a shield made to absorb the spell was pulled up immediately. Not only she had been brought up as a weapon; most Slytherin children like them had: the result of paranoid, former-Death Eater parents. He heard her last comment, and something in him snapped. He advanced on her, and kissed her hard on the lips. He hated her. He hated her with every fibre of his being. Well, at that moment. She knew he hated what she was doing, and he knew she was trying to rile him up. Probably so they could have a good fight. He couldn’t be one-hundred-percent sure, though. He pulled away from her, and took one small step back. “I wonder what Scorpius will think when he found out his wife kissed Lucian Avery. And I’ll make sure that it gets to him in the worst way possible.” He promised.

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

Kara blew a fuse, after the moment he had kissed her. He had pulled away from her. She stopped taunting him, but now he was taunting her? this didn't make a lick of sense, why was he doing this to her? She pushed him away from her. "what in the hell do you think your doing?" she said aloud. She attempted to slap him again, but decided that she'd go with back handing him this time. She hated him so much, why he had to be such an ass was beyond her, but if she could change, he could damn well change too.

Before she had moved away from him though, she had muttered one of the unforgivables and had shot it at him, well she hardly ever played by the rules. Honestly he deserved everything he got from her, all the taunting, the seduction and everything else that she had done to him over the last few years. He couldn't stop this curse, because it had been right up against him, and he should have known her better. At the time, they had been unstoppable pair. Looking at him she glared.

"i want to thank you for mending Lily and my relationship... and i do wonder what she'll think when i tell her you did more than kissed me, who do you think wil believe me more? Lily or Scorp, and which one will believe you? ?I'll make sure that they both get that message... even if i have to steep real low to do it" it was a done deal.

[LUCIAN CHARLES AVERY]

“I’m playing your game, K. You don’t think you’re the only one that can play, do you?” Luc asked in a mocking tone. All of a sudden, he was hit with the cruciatus curse, and he almost cried out, waiting for the curse to either fade, or for her to remove it. He doubted she would, though, and so he leaned on the side of the bed for support until the convulsions faded. He was almost seeing red with anger, but was trying in vain to hold it back. By this point, he was just out for blood, literally or metaphorically.

When she said she would tell Lily, Lucian was sure that that was his last straw. All of a sudden, he had conjured a knife and there was one long slice up her right leg, and it was bleeding profusely. The expression on his face was one of sadistic, torturous anger. “You’d better not tell Lily. You can tell your husband whatever you want…he doesn’t matter anymore. But you are not telling her.” He said. Lucian realized he had just put himself out, vulnerable now. He had showed that he cared what Lily thought. He did, though. He loved her, in a different way than Kara, but it was still a love that he held onto. He couldn’t have her knowing about what he truly felt for Lily…that would be disastrous, especially with her spouting that she and Lily were now friends. If she told her what he had done…he had no chance of getting her back. And for Lucian, that wasn’t really an option.

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

She felt him slice her leg and she held her wand tighter, muttering the curse again, she figured it wouldn't have gone away so quickly. His foul play wasn't really helping, but she couldn't do anything about it. Sure the cut hurt and she probably was bleeding, she couldn't really feel it, as he should know they both had extensive training in the battle field. Her uncle taught her to never cry out, to deal with the pain and just ignore it, because in a fight nothing else would matter than getting out alive.

"You know i'm going to do one better and tell your sisters and father all about Lily and how much you care for her... i'm sure they're dying to know, and then i'm going to tell lily all about what you did to me" she twisted her wand again, hitting him with the curse again. She wouldn't ever tell Lily about what happened here, but he didn't need to know that. not to mention one of Luc's sister didn't really like her, but it seems as if his father caught word of the occasional thing and Kara just happened to hear about it.

"how does it feel to have your insides turned out Luc?" she smirked, actually moving around, she had healed the wound, and muttered something so that he couldn't heal his wounds when she was done with him. She pulled her fist back and popped him one, right in the face. She would assume that he'd have a black eye sometime soon. She fell to the floor, just laying there, she figured that he couldn't move, so she was safe for a moment. She wasn't going to let her guard down, the baby was just making things a bit more difficult for her to fight properly.

[LUCIAN CHARLES AVERY]

He couldn’t let her tell his sisters about Lily. Even though Aubrey would think it was sweet, Julianna would probably have a problem with it, and that wasn’t a good thing. When she said she would tell his father as well, Lucian felt sick. He had always wanted to please his father, even if he hated the man because of where he was and how he had abandoned his family. He didn’t know what to do to prevent her from doing it, as he really had no idea why she was torturing him so. Lucian knew she had a real purpose, and that this game wasn’t being played for the entertainment value…but he had no idea what that true purpose was, and that was what was nagging at him as he stood there.

He was in pain, from the curses she had put on him, and by this point, he just wanted out. He needed to know what he could do to, somehow, keep her from opening her mouth, and ruining every genuine connection he had…plus Lily. He wasn’t one to share emotions at all, and maybe that was why he was where he was now. He couldn’t help but feel like this was some sick issuing of karma. “What…do you want…from me?” He said with a clenched jaw, trying not to show any outward signs of the pain. “Tell me, whatever it is…I swear, I’ll try…to do it.” Luc had to pause to keep from screaming.

[KARA ANITA JOHNSON]

Kara released him of all the curses, pouring herself another drink she downed it all and looked at him with a stone cold face. This wasn't usually the way these two conversed, when they were together they had done this many times to others and enjoyed it. “I’m going to tell her, and there is almost nothing you can do to stop me. Unless...” Kara paused and pushed him down on the bed, his begging wasn’t good enough for her, even though she thoroughly enjoyed it. Kara straddled him and kissed him hard in return from earlier. All she wanted at this very moment was to jump his bones, but she was trying to remain faithful to Scorpius.

The only thing she wanted from Lucian was to know why she had been missing seven months of her memory and what happened between the two of them. “All I want to know is why you left me and what kind of deal you made for me to end up with a scar here.” Kara unzipped her pants and pulled them down to reveal a scar that had been there since she was fifteen years old and with no recollection as to how she had acquired it. They had been so good for each other, going down a path that their parents would have been proud of. Kara knew Luc hadn’t changed from the weapon he was made for and he knew it as well. Trying to hide from who he was, Kara always saw through Lucian and he had done the same with her. There was only one secret between these two and Lucian was the one who held all the cards, but Kara always got what she wanted out of him. The difference between the two of them was Kara wasn't a coward and wouldn't have ever given in, no matter how much she was tortured.